Screaming in My Head

The screaming in my head doesn't stop. 

It drowns out reason. 

It swallows joy. 

I walk through the day with a soft pleasant smile on my face. 

A ready laugh. 

A kind word. 

But the screaming in my head doesn't stop. 

Beating against the inside of my skull. 

Incoherent raging. 

Uncontrollable madness. 

The adventure is always worth it. Step into your fear. 

Trite phrases. 

Meant to inspire. 

But the screaming in my head doesn't stop. 

A maelstrom of volatile emotions. 

Quick to laugh.

Just as quick to cry. 

Trying so hard to live with the screaming in my head, that doesn't stop. 

Until I am with you. 

Then everything in me settles. 

I calm.

Tension eases. 

Screaming quiets. 

I can rest, with my head on your chest. 

For a moment. 

Until you're gone. 

Then the screaming starts again.

When I am alone and it is very quiet I am very scared. 

Of you. 

Of us. 

Terrified of something so powerful that it can quiet the screaming in my head.