Stupid, Stupid Girl

Oh you stupid stupid girl.

You believed him when he said he loved you,  didn't you? 

Sweet words and gentle kisses. 

Promises whispered in the dark of night. 

You stupid girl.  

Desperately hoping and wanting to believe. 

Stupid girl for ever thinking he could love you. 

Stupid girl for thinking he would pick you. 

Stupid little girl letting a man break your heart wide open.  

Stupid stupid girl for crying. 

Stupid girl. 

You know the next time he calls you will answer. 

And the next time you answer, he will hurt you again. 

But you, stupid girl, will keep hoping, keep believing, keep coming back for more. 

When does it end, you stupid little girl?  

When do you harden your heart? 

When do you turn your back and walk away? 

When do you decide you aren't playing his games anymore? 

Stupid little girl, believing in love and happily ever after. 

If being a stupid girl means holding on to hope, then yes, I am a stupid girl. 

If it means holding a soft open heart, I will gladly be stupid. 

If it means I leap into each new adventure and embrace all life has to offer, 

then call me a stupid girl. 

If it means I forgive over and over, even those things that are unforgivable,  

then I wouldn't want to live any other way. 

I will always chose love, compassion, hope, forgiveness and adventure over a bitter hard heart. 

If that makes me a stupid girl,  then I am proud to be stupid. 

I would never want to be anything else.