But then one day you were busy, or irritated and it wasn't quite so special anymore. One day you started to see flaws. One day you started to take that very special person for granted. You stopped putting on makeup or shaving your legs. You stopped cleaning out your car before a date. You stopped sending that early morning text. Together became average and expected instead of incredibly wonderful.
When I met my guy I knew he wasn't the one. I loved him but...
He works too much and watches to much TV. He doesn't take care of himself. He drinks soda and eats fried foods. Sometimes, he eats a big bowl of ice cream with caramel sauce and whip cream for dinner (not a single vegetable). He even ...gasp...smokes cigarettes. No way was I going to commit to this guy whose lifestyle is so far from my own and who is headed for an early grave.
My father made those choices and I held his hand as he died. I would not go through that again.
Yet I loved him and I saw so much goodness in him. Even more, he loved me in just the way I needed to be loved.
One day, when I stopped judging him for all his failings, I came to realize that not one of us is promised tomorrow. There are no guarantees. If you are going to love, love fully and deeply, right now.
I am so aware that this kiss may be my last. This night might be the last I spend sleeping in the safe circle of his arms. This may be the last dinner we share across the table. This may be the last time we walk hand in hand. This may be the last time I laugh at one of his jokes. Today may be his last, may be my last. You never know when you'll be hit by a bus, or a tornado or a heart attack.
I made the choice to celebrate each day we get to spend together, to cherish what we have and never take it for granted. If today is all I've got then today I will love with all my heart. Each today is a gift.
Tomorrow is not promised to any of us.
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