Tell Me

I used to need reassurance. 

Say the words I so desperately need to hear. 

Tell me I am loved. 

Tell me I am beautiful.

Tell me you pick me. 

Tell me. Tell me. Tell me. 

Without your words I am nothing. Broken and bleeding. Begging for reassurance. 

Tell me I am doing the right thing. 

Tell me I am good enough. 

Tell me I am worthy.

Tell me. Tell me. Tell me. 

Without your words I am lost in the dark. Looking for purpose. Looking for peace. Give me reassurance. 

Tell me you see me. 

Tell me you hear me. 

Tell me I have value. 

Oh please tell me. Tell me. Tell me. 

I hear your words and they mean nothing. Repetitive reassurance.  Over and over. Still not enough. 

Tell me. Tell me. Tell me. 

I used to blame you. 

Why couldn't you say the words I needed to hear in the way I needed to hear them?

Everything changed when I decided to choose myself. 

I am loved. 

I am beautiful. 

I pick me. 

I am. I am. I am.

I do not need your words. I am whole and healed on my own. 

I am doing my best.

I am enough.

I am worthy. 

I am. I am. I am. 

I sit in the light. I have purpose. I am at peace.

 

I listen to my inner wisdom. 

I speak my truth.

I value myself. 

I am. I am. I am. 

I don't need your reassurance anymore. I don't blame you anymore. For now I am whole. 

These Three, My Strength, My Solace, My Joy

Time and again my voice rends the silence. A scream pulled out of me. A name wailed in distress. 

It doesn't matter which one I call. Doesn't matter which one is home. They hear me and they come running. They hear me and they wrap their arms around me. They hear me and they hold me without question, while I sob. 

Time and again my voice stays silent. Tears streak down my cheeks. Nothing said. No words. 

It doesn't matter which one finds me. Doesn't matter who is the first to see me. They reach for me. They lean against me. They wrap their arms around me and hold me without question, while I sob.

Time and again these three have held me up. They have offered comfort. They have held me close. 

Time and again they have been with me while I grieve. Sometimes they know why I cry. Other times they are clueless. Every time they have offered unconditional love and support.

These three were children when our world was torn apart. Grief. Trauma. Loss. Ever since these three have been by my side. My strength, my solace, my joy. 

I am grateful for them. 

I Fell in Love Today

I fell in love with you today, when I looked in the mirror. 

It always happens that way.  

I see me and I love me. 

It makes it easier to love you. 

I fell in love with you today, when I realized that I am enough, just as I am. 

I don't need to be anything, do anything, change anything. 
It makes it easier to accept you. 

I fell in love with you today, when I forgave myself.  

I am divinely human. 

I mess up. I hurt people. I have before and I will again. 

It makes it easier to forgive you. 

I fell in love with you today, when I was gentle with myself. 

I was kind to me, spoke gently.

I let myself rest when I needed to.  
It makes it easier to be gentle with you. 

I fell in love with you today, when I laughed at myself. 

I sang and danced and played. 

For a moment, I didn't take myself so seriously. 
It makes it easier to laugh with you. 

I fell in love with you today, when I was patient with myself. 

I don't need to get it all right. 

I don't need to know all the answers. 

I am allowed to take my time. 

It makes it easier to be patient with you. 

I fell in love with you today. 
I fell in love with life today. 
But mostly, I fell in love with me today.