Life is full of beginnings and endings. Starts and stops. Hellos and good byes. Births and deaths. It's part of the natural circle of life. Some things go so that new things can take their place.
I've always said I'm a quitter, but what I've come to realize is that there is no shame in that. Instead it is one of my super powers. I excel at letting go, at moving on, at releasing that which doesn't serve me. Rarely do I stay stuck for too long because the winds of change and my thirst for new adventures pull at me until I just have to move on.
I recognize people who are stable and strong like the earth, forever unchanging. I appreciate them for they make me feel safe. But for me, to stay still makes me feel like I'm suffocating, dying.
Years ago I resisted change. I felt that it was my duty to persevere against all odds, whether I liked it or not. I was like a child told to clear my plate before I could go play. I sulked and I struggled, determined to do the right thing, to finish what I start, determined to not quit.
I was fighting my nature and the ways of the world. Endings and beginnings.
Until finally I made a deal with my Source, the God of my understanding. I said that whatever was placed in front of me, I would do, and whatever was taken away from me, I would release. It's often much harder to release what I want then it is to embrace the challenges in front of me.
Right now I'm in a time of ending and a time of beginning. With the ending comes sorrow, I grieve as I let go. With the beginning comes excitement as I step into a new adventure. With both come challenges.
It is time for me to close my yoga studio. It is not serving me well right now. My children will only be young once and every class I teach is an hour I won't get back with them, a dinner, a concert, a baseball game missed.
I love to teach and I love my yoga peeps. I will miss spending time with them. I accept this ending with a heavy heart.
With every ending comes a new beginning. This week I start college again on the road to a B.S. in Psychology with a Concentration in Addiction. I also begin volunteering as a Recovery Coach so I can get experience and hour towards becoming a Certified Recovery Support Worker.
Most of the time I don't know where the path in front of me will lead. I have no idea where I will land or what comes next. What I do know is that it takes courage and strength to accept the endings and embrace the beginnings. Living authentically, choosing what brings joy and meaning to you life, and chasing your dreams is worth the price of the endings and the challenge of the beginnings. 