Have you ever climbed up on a fence and sat there? Feeling like you want to make a move, like maybe there's something more or a better way but you're frozen, maybe by indecision or fear.
There's a voice in your heart whispering to you to take the leap, move on, try something new. You feel the pull. There is a yearning in your soul.
There's a voice in your heart whispering to you to take the leap, move on, try something new. You feel the pull. There is a yearning in your soul.
Yet you stay on the fence, not committing to one side or the other. Perhaps you survey your friends and your family members to hear their thoughts. You make list of the pros and cons. You dream about 'what if' in your bed late at night.
Yet you remain frozen. You are no longer fully invested in what is because your heart is contemplating what could be. But you can't make the leap into what could be because your rational mind is holding you back.
And so you ride the fence.
Some people spend years on the fence. Some people step off the fence into what is and turn their back on what could be. Some people ignore the voice in their heart for so long it grows silent and they don't even remember why they climbed the fence in the first place.
I am on the fence. I hear the voice of Divine Inspiration in my head and I feel the pull in my heart. I know there is something I am meant to do. I had this vision a year ago and let the reasoning of my advisers talk me out of it. I trusted my loved ones more then I trusted the voice of God.
A year ago I didn't even climb the fence. I took a quick peak over into the unknown and then quickly backed away.
This time I'm riding the fence, doing the research, asking my family, making the lists. But not making a choice. Not picking a side.
So here I sit on the top of the fence, one leg thrown over the top rail, looking back the way I've come.
The way ahead is unknown and uncertain, even a little scary. I wish I had a crystal ball so I could see into the future. I wish I had more courage or faith that it would turn out the way I want it to.
Instead what I have is a deeply held conviction that there are no wrong paths, that each experience is worth it and that I have something valuable to learn regardless of how things turn out.
And so I jump...
