A few years ago I received an email in my inbox inviting me to I Can Do It, Toronto. This is a big Hay House conference that happens in many locations year after year. I opened this email, looked at the calendar and thought it might be an interesting thing to do. Within an hour I had booked my flight, made arrangements to stay with a friend, bought conference tickets and arranged childcare. Little did I know this one weekend would change my life.
While there I decided to sign up for a past life regression workshop. I didn’t believe at the time but it was something my mom had talked about for years and I was sure it would be a lark. Walking into the room I was disturbed. Sitting in my chair I became anxious and it was all I could do not to run from the room. I told myself I was being silly, that there was nothing to worry about. Yet my fear was palpable. Denise Linn led that group past life regression, taking us to a safe place, allowing us to meet our spirit guides and then walking us through the mists of time. I sobbed through the whole experience. I felt more than I wanted to feel. I learned more about myself than I wanted to learn. I couldn’t talk, couldn’t cease crying. All I wanted was to be safe in the arms of my mother. So I ran, found a bus and cried all the way home to my best friend.
Before I left that weekend I bought some of Denise Linn’s books and embarked on an interesting and life changing course. I was very afraid to ‘remember’ anything so I set out to discover my past without visiting it. Over time and with work memories started to spontaneously come to me. When it became overwhelming I would shut down but more and more I wanted to know who I had been, where I had come from, how my past was shaping my present.
I have remembered my parents, my grandparents, my best friend, my children and seen how previous patterns show up and are repeated. But more than remembering, this explained to me why sometimes you meet someone that just feels right. I have come to understand that soulmates are not just destined lovers. They are people that show up again and again over lifetimes. Those people who have a significant impact on your life are people that have touched your life before, for good or bad.
This brings me to contemplate destiny or divine appointment… I show up here at this time and you show up too. Was it destined? Did we have a divine appointment? Did you know that I was ready for that lesson or perhaps I needed you now? I don’t believe in coincidence so that means we were meant to be here together, sharing this part of our life, this conversation. I think about Denise Linn who’s workshop changed my life. I think about my teacher who has had such a huge impact on my personal evolution. I think about the man who sit’s next to me on an airplane. Are there any chance meetings?
The one thing I know, when I show up here and you show up here we then have a choice. We can recognize each other and move forward together learning what we came together to learn or we can deny this encounter as chance, move on and miss an opportunity to become more than we were. Over a lifetime we will have many appointments to keep but we also have free will as to what we do after those meetings. Sometimes we see right to the heart and soul of someone. Other times we get to know them slowly. And still other times we are blinded perhaps by fear, doubt, insecurities and we chose to close our eyes, see nothing and move on quickly.
My deepest desire is to open my mind and my heart to the possibilities. I don’t want to miss any opportunities. I am here, where are you?
